Mallory,
Thank you for sharing this burden with us. As you know from those that responded in word, more are responding through prayer.
Joyce and I had a sense that the Lord was opening up something for us that didn't happen. That's not to say we know how you feel because your feelings are your own and they're a gift from God...even the hard feelings.
What I can say is that we are still putting all of our trust in Him.
When Jesus was disappointed because "many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him," he asked the twelve, "You do not want to leave too, do you?" Like Peter, Joyce and I say to Him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life." (John 6:66-68)
When I was first asked to write my play on The Revelation I was asked to insert breaks for praise. I was shocked and told my pastors, who had commissioned me, "The Revelation is filled with judgment. Do you think it's going to put people in an attitude of worship?" But as I dissected the book I found it to be FILLED with praise. As John the Apostle I urge people to "Praise God during the worst of circumstances. It shows Him that you trust Him."
We're still trying figure out why God allowed us to think He was leading us into something that has evaporated, but maybe it was all so we could tell you that praising Him through it all is the best way to wholeness.
During Joyce's preparation to become a counselor she was told not to give people a tissue if they're weeping. Even with the best of intentions it's a subtle request for them to stop. By telling you to praise, I'm not telling you to stop crying. Cry on! Read some Psalms. David heard God's call to be king, and then Saul nearly killed him time and time again. He did a lot of weeping...and a lot of praising.
We're weeping with you by the way...and praising Him for what's to come for all of us: Jeremiah 29:11
in Christ alone,
Rich
On Nov 4, 2008, at 2:25 PM, Mallory LaBoy wrote:
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I just wanted to give an update... I found out about sight and sound last night... i didn't get the job. I'm having a really hard time right now, and this just felt like the icing on the cake to hear a no... 3 months of waiting to hear the word "No." I know this industry is full of rejection, don't get me wrong, I understand that... but it's not really the rejection that hurts... it's the fact that I really thought the Lord wanted me there in my next season in life. I can't even tell you how much I thought I saw that confirmed, and how many people (many of them random) spoke it over me. I just don't understand. The timing, everything about it seemed so perfect. I was heart broken last night...still am. When I got the news yesterday, it felt like a bad dream, or a really bad joke. I feel so confused right now. I guess I just really don't know how to process this answer. Please keep me in your prayers. I'm feeling so hurt. My head is spinning. I have no idea what to do, or what I'm going to do. Please pray... I need clarity... and I really need direction. This is a shift I wasn't expecting. Thanks everyone.
~Mal
